This may be the only way...

Hello world...we are still here!!

The last year has been disappointing.  Almost exactly a year ago, I started working again, and that led the the downfall of all I had been doing.  Kurt tried hard for a while, but lost the motivation himself. 

Now that we are doing this business on our own, we thought we could dictate our schedule...but we seem to really be having difficulty with that.  I don't know if its because we find it difficult to schedule it onto our calendar as an "appointment", when really we know that if someone wanted us to shoot at that time, we could move things around, or if we are just looking for an excuse to by lazy.  Or maybe both.

But it's really challenging, to go from being (for lack of a better term) a bump on a log to being active.  I am constantly desperate for the easy way.  

The biggest thing about really getting back to this is tied between two thoughts: 1) we were shooting on Friday in Caughlin Ranch and had to walk this trail to shoot the back of the house...and the trip back up to the road was a 11% grade that couldn't have been more than 1/16th of a mile...and we were dying, out of breath, ready to fall over (I was carrying 20lbs of equipment, but that shouldn't be an excuse), and 2) we spend...not a lot, but more than we could, to go to a gym we actually do enjoy once we get there...and it's a waste when we don't go.

Another huge problem, besides motivation - because that will always be a problem for me - is that we rarely prepare a meal at home and when we do, it is something cheap, cheerful and bad for us.  We need to make a habit of grocery shopping and meal planning again.  This is where the lazy catches up with me again.

So anyway, that is just a bit of what has been going on lately.  I don't anticipate that we'll be blogging everyday, but we will definitely update once or twice a week.  We are going into the busy season, so I guess there isn't a better time to start including our healthier lifestyle into our schedule.

Until later,

Motivation...Where Art Thou?

A few minutes between color balancing and stitching panoramas together...

I had the last few days off, which was great...minus the fact that I wish I was capable of catching up on all my missed sleep.  But of course this should be when I am getting my gym time in as well.  What am I if not a great procrastinator.  And its all my doing too!

I convinced my motivator (i.e. Kurt) that we didn't need to go to the gym on Tuesday...that we could go on a bike ride now that Kurt has his bike back.  Of course we didn't get up until late on Tuesday and by then it was already starting to get hot.  So we decided to go to the gym Wednesday.

Wednesday comes around and neither of us wants to go in the morning...so we decided the evening.  Then evening comes and I just can't find the motivation...and of course I talk Kurt into going for a bike ride instead...only that didn't happen either. 

So I convince him that we will go for a ride this morning...even though the bike seat on my bike (formerly the bike Kurt was riding while waiting for his to be fixed) is awful (its a male seat).  Do you want to guess what happened?

6am rolled around WAY to early this morning...and that didn't happen. So now I am sitting here at work...feeling stupid for not going...but still not at all motivated.  I was hoping to maybe get off work at a decent time tonight in order to go...but once I got here I realized that wasn't going to happen.

I keep thinking the only thing I can do is try again tomorrow...but then when tomorrow comes around, my motivation is lost again.

Everything is lost.  I haven't been eating great (some days I really do try and fail miserably).  And that's the big problem...because even if I am not getting to work out or am not motivated to do so, at least I should be eating better...to supply some bit of healthiness to this whole thing.

So slowly today I am going to try to work my motivation back...be it researching some healthy habit things online or at least trying to get a quick walk in while at work (which will most likely not happen because there's so much to do and I want to get home before midnight.)

Maybe I just need something new to do...I'm hoping riding my bike will kick up the motivation a bit...but I think I need to get some free weight for home so that I can start a little strength work.  I need a pool.  Our community has a pool but it is only open from 10am to 9pm or something like that.  Normally I'm at work at that time...but I guess I could do it right at 10am as long as there were not other people there, because I would actually be there to swim and not to float around. 

I know that I just need to push through this lack of motivation...part of me wishes that I wasn't working so much and that I could be a hyper focused on the exercise and the healthy eating as I was when we started this whole thing...but then again, it is nice to have a job again (regardless of how much I complain about it sometimes.)

Anyway, it's time to get back to doing work.  I'm actually working while doing this but my panoramas are bogging down the computer, so I should close the Internet window.  Cassie, I'm looking forward to your recipes (if you already sent them, I didn't get them.)  We need a little more variety in our lives.

I'm going to try to be better about this...I know Kurt is too...so until next time. :P